For a long time now, I have been attracted to spending time, and paying attention to my behaviour and that of the people around me. I would endlessly analyze people, driving myself and others crazy, until I understood something about the way they feel and about what I feel. Then I realized that behavior itself actually doesn't mean much, our behavior is not who we really are; It is just our conditioning and underneath it lays something much more profound and deep. It immediately broke down so many prejudices and judgments I had and left me with a clear view about humanity and with a deeper understanding about human basic needs which, I figured out, are the same for everyone. This understanding was a big relief for me as it made me realize I can actually love everyone.
For many years I studied art in art schools and I couldn't let go of my studies out of fear of being left alone without any guidance the moment I would step out into the real world. When I eventually did leave school, life started to be very kind to me. I learned that when I follow what excites me without fear, life is good to me. It felt okay that people don’t always understand and accept what I say or do and that people don’t always like me and even clearly communicate their dislike. Then I understood that in order to do what I want I should not wait until others like me or accept me! I have to start accepting the fact that I should do what excites me regardless of external approval.
I can't always behave in a way that satisfies everybody and it is fine to let people be disappointed or angry at me if this is what they choose. I know I love them anyway so they can always feel safe. Giving sessions and listening to people has become a priority and I can definitely say that there is nothing more fascinating for me than this.
Ann Kristin Höft
Founder of Flow - Yoga and More, Mannheim.
Ann Kristin is a Yoga teacher, teaching Vinyasa Flow, Restorative & Yin, Workshops and Teacher Training. Ann Kristinn collaborates with Alona in organizing workshops and sessions in Mannheim.
"I love connecting people and letting them shine"
Julia Bulik is an artist and does social work with children and families in Berlin.
Since 2000 Julia has been practicing Vipassana meditation, studied various spiritual teachings, and engaging in trainings in social- and trauma work. She has been Alonas companion in intense research and investigation in the inner-feelings process for the past 17 years, establishing the Berlin Group with Alona 13 years ago.